Am I two-faced?

Sometimes ppl say, under different conditions and hanging out with different ppl, u need to blend in so that u can get along well with others and be happy in the end... is that always true in life? I find myself doing that nowadays automatically, but whether I'm reli happy in the end is reli a different question... >.<


Specifically, I find myself turning into two completely different person when I'm with my gang from home, and when I'm with my gang from college... and honestly, I dun reli like the 'me' when I'm with my college frens... I feel like that's not the real me! When I'm with my hometown frens, I'm always the crazy guy who jokes a lot and say stupid stuffs to create a cheerful environment... I dun feel insecure when I'm with them, that's why I just love every second I spend with them... but things r so different when I'm with my college frens... I try not to talk too much crap when I'm with them, I just feel like somehow, they dun buy what I say... I always feel paranoid around them and worried if sth I say might cause unpleasant feelings to them... sigh...


I just came back from my trip to Sunway for my graduation... throughout the whole trip, the only time I reli felt like myself was when I went to Midvalley to meet with one of my hometown frens, Eric to celebrate his bd... That was precious as it's hard these days to meet my close buddies due to different study places and holidays... As for my college frens, as soon as I caught up with them, I became less talkative... why do I have a feeling that I'm not one of them, I dunno... somehow there's always this feeling that some of them dun like me... am I being too paranoid? Or is it true that some of them dun like me? >.<


I'll be having 5 years of degree starting next Feb... due to the present situation, at times I reli hope my holiday never ends... T.T but one shud always face the reality, I just hope the situation would be better in future... I pray to You, please help me, my heavenly Father from above! @.@

Graduation night

I just had a 4 day trip to Sunway due to the graduation night for my pre-U program, MUFY... graduation was just one night, but why was I there for 4 days then? U might say I'm a busy person with many things to settle, haha... 


Anyway, let's just get straight to the main event of my trip, MUFY Graduation Night... I was very excited about it, cuz it was an occasion where I can dress up smartly and do my hair nicely to let others see... xD In order to look better on the night, I borrowed a coat from my cousin, which was actually his wedding coat, LOL... it was a bit too big, I have to admit, but oh well, overall it still looks ok... haha... However, on graduation day itself, things didn't start quite well for me... while I was bathing before going for graduation, I actually broke one of my nose pads of my specs (the pair of small thingy lying between the eyes), oh no! =.= But in the end I just continue wearing it, and luckily no one realized it, haha!

So, this is me and arguably my best fren in MUFY, Vignaa... so how do I look? Haha... I tried my best making a good hairstyle, which I dun do very often... Pls ignore my tie, it just annoys me even more now when I look through my photos of the night, my tie was crooked in all of them! >.< 


Of cuz, graduation was all about certificates and prizes... So a lot of awards and certificates were given out on the night... Apart from awards for highest scores in subjects, there were two more individual major awards, Award for Achievement and Award for Excellence... I was actually aiming for the Award for Excellence, which was given to the person with the highest MUFY score... in the end, I didn't get it and instead I got the Achievement Award, given to someone who contributed significantly in both academic and co-curricular activities... This came to me as a big surprise as I keep scratching my head, what co-curricular contribution did I give o?? Oh well, I'm just grateful and wanna thank all the lecturers and coursemates who helped me on the way... =)

Me with my award and certificate and stuffs

Awards and certificates recipients

Lastly, with everyone all dressed up so smart and gorgeous, taking pictures was just something everyone had to do... I reli loved the fact that u could take pictures with so many different ppl, even with some ppl who u normally wouldn't expect to... 


Personally, my favorite was a picture that I took with this one particular girl... honestly, she was the girl that attracted me the most on the night, dazzlingly beautiful, haha... too bad we were never close enuf frens to ever chat or talk normally... I even thought she hated me last year, cuz I gave a bad first impression and was too initiative? Oh well, I can only wish that one day, she could actually eliminate her barrier against me and give me some kind of response... there's still 5 more years to go though, haha... Sry guys, but I'm not gonna post that picture here, in respect to her privacy and identity... =)

Working, finally~~

Finally I've found a job after almost two months of holiday and time wasting, haha! It's a promoter job for Nestle Corn Flakes, specially for the Hari Raya period... The pay is quite nice, 7 hours per day, RM57, and I only work on Fridays to Sundays every week up until Hari Raya... I calculated that in total, I'll be able to earn more than 1k at the end, easy money, u think? Think again!

First of all, as I think u all will know, working is nth fun, most of the time it's damn boring cuz seriously, it's just NO FUN! Secondly, promoter is a job where u have to talk and talk and talk, and get rejected most of the time, it's super FRUSTRATING! Thirdly, standing for seven hours a day without sitting, it's TIRING!

What makes my work much harder is the fact that I'm left with nothing but myself and my mouth... One would expect a promoter of corn flakes to at least have samples for customers to taste, but I don't have! My company refused to provide... =.= How do u expect me to promote corn flakes without samples when everybody knows exactly what is corn flakes?! Plus, the Hari Raya period is not even close at the moment, making this a normal period for everyone, ppl dun tend to buy corn flakes unless it's for breakfast... and to make matters worse, most ppl prefer tastier breakfast cereals such as Koko Krunch or Honey Stars, sigh... I virtually gave up in the end and was just standing there daydreaming as I know nine times out of ten, I'll get rejected by customers whom I promote Nestle Corn Flakes to... >.<

Let's just hope things get better as the Hari Raya period edges closer n closer...

Self accident T.T

U might be wondering what accident is it?? Okay, it's a motorcycle accident... I fell off my bike on Thurs morning by myself, damn lousy driver, right? No! Partly it was my inexperience, however the main cause was the stupid road full of mud n stones... I was turning at 10 or 20 km/h, and then my bike just slided and I literally 'flew' forward... Ouch! Luckily I got two injuries only, which is still super painful... @.@

Look at the numerous holes on my right foot... zzz...

And this is my bloody right arm... T.T

Both of these pictures were taken at home before going for treatment... Anyway, the place of incident is very far away from my house, n after the fall, my bike was doomed (or so I thought!), so I had to call my dad to be my saviour... He drove to my place immediately n when he arrived, he tried adjusting my bike, and to my amazement, the bike is still ride-able, haha... since I can't ride it in my state, my dad rode it back while I drove home! Impressive, driving a manual car with my injured right foot... =.=

At the moment, I'm ok and currently in progress of recovery... I just hope it won't become a hindrance to me when I go to Sunway on Tues for my coming graduation dinner... >.<

Interview Result~~

After days of speculation, the result of my MBBS interview finally arrived in my inbox! Haha, guess what my result is? It's..... SUFFICIENT! Lol, what a word used to tell me I passed the interview... Anyway, I'm just glad I've taken a big step towards getting into Monash Uni for MBBS... it's not that I was too worried abt it, unlike most of the other MBBS candidates... the result started reaching others on Monday, but most ppl didn't get it by then... so many ppl were jumping up and down for it... so what made me feel so calm?? I guess it was something my fren, Vignaa told me before, he said "ppl won't fail interview so easy one"... In the end, he was even more nervous than me, HAHA!


However, as I mentioned before, after passing my interview, I need to deal with ISAT and IELTS... have been busy registering for them today whole day, and now it's finally done... what's super troublesome abt these stuffs is that I can't take them in Sibu as Sibu has no test centers! Oh well, I decided to take ISAT next friday at KL right after my graduation, and IELTS at the end of this month at kuching... Think that's all the problems? No! See, I'm getting a promoter job and I'm supposed to work every friday till sunday... These two tests will take away two fridays and two saturdays of work... sigh, I hope my boss will let me off the hook... >.<

Speaking of graduation, I still haven't decided what to wear for this 'grand' occasion!! Hope I figure out something very very soon~~ @.@

Interview!!

Finally, my interview is over! Phew, now I can breathe again, haha... The interview is actually one of the requirements for me to enter Monash University to study medicine, so it was a very important interview... I wasted a whole week preparing for it and even quited Maple during the whole time... prepared a lot of basic questions such as 'Tell us about yourself' and 'Why do you want to be a doctor?', which in the end became useless, cuz the interview questions was situation based questions... sigh...


Anyway, I just came back from Sunway in a 24 hour trip... reached KL at 8pm on wed night, and back in Sibu at 8pm just now, super fast right? Luckily I did that, cuz I had nothing to do at all in Sunway... Before I went for the interview, I called my fren who did her interview on wed, which is earlier than me, and asked her about the interview... do u consider that cheating? Oh well, who cares, right? Haha... through her, I got to know beforehand that's it's situation based questions, so I did some research quickly at home before I fly to KL (where there's no internet for me)...

For the interview, there weren't just July 2010 MUFY intake, many other unknown faces were there as well... we were divided into three groups, every group having 2 stations... My group had 8 ppl, with 2 persons going into the 2 stations per round, n then swapping stations... every station is 10 minutes, so each round lasted 20 minutes... and guess what? Unfortunately, I was the 8th person, meaning I have to wait for 60 minutes before my turn... that was the longest grueling 60 minutes I've had in a very long time, oh my gosh... U have to sit there n be silent, not doing anything other than staring anywhere u wanna stare...


Anyway, when it was my turn, I guess my interview went ok... Although at one or two moments I went blank, most of the time I just talked and talked... now I'm just hoping that what I said was what they were looking for >.< What's left now r IELTS and ISAT... Go! Go! Go! xD