I have come to a point in my life where, instead of
always being emo about my status and lack of attraction to the opposite gender,
I have succumbed to the acceptance of them. I used to be always emo about being
unable to get the girl that I'm attracted to, and feeling so down when I see
all the couples around me, whether I know them or not. Well, those days are
over, temporarily at least. Now, I've just come to accept the fact that I'm
just not that attractive to girls, both physically and mentally.
Personally, when I go around shopping in some mega malls
or night markets, my eyes are always wandering around looking at random pretty
girls walking pass me all the time. Not that I'm a maniac, no, it's just
human's natural reactions to beautiful objects, which in this case, beautiful
people. But after a while, I realized that no one's doing the same to me in
return. The fact is I'm just not a beautiful guy where females' eyes would
follow. Based on personal extractions of others honest opinions in the past,
the general view is that my physical impression is categorized as nerdy, too
serious and most of all, typical. The sad truth indeed.
I can indeed say I would occasionally turn emo because of
everything I just mentioned, but those occasions are becoming less and less.
The reason is as stated by the title above, acceptance. Acceptance that
beautiful girls are just not meant to end up with me. Acceptance that I would
be the near last guy to be noticed by girls in a room full of males and
females. And eventually, acceptance that everything is in God's plan and it
would be meaningless to make an effort to chase attractive girls since I'm
gonna end up miserably.
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