Can feelings be developed?

As you can see from the title of this post, I'm asking a simple yet complicated question. Can feelings be developed between two person who has no feelings for each other at all when they first knew each other? Can trying to be close frens with that person develop feelings in the end? What do u think? Is it possible?


Somehow due to many past experiences, whether it's mine or others, I just have to disagree to the question, not completely but to a great extent... For example, I had a fren in MUFY who falls for a girl... what he did was he tried to be close frens with the girl, perhaps hoping that one day she'll develop feelings for him as well? Oh well, in the end, when the girl got the hint that he likes her, she quickly turned cold n ignored my fren, it was so obvious that she's saying no to him, forgetting they were close frens previously...

Next example, my own... in my previous posts (months ago), I talked abt a girl that I previously liked in MUFY... well, she's almost the same situation... I liked her, and tried to be close frens with her... but in the end, when I confessed, everything just fell through the roof... it doesn't matter how close u r with the person, as long as he/she has no feelings for u, the feelings won't just come out for u just because u r closer now... there has to be the sparks there... if not, whatever efforts r just useless... so can feelings be developed? I reli doubt it...

500 Days of Summer

Oh my! Oh my! This movie is great! Alright, one fren of mine had already blogged about this in his blog in the past, but I dun care, cuz I just wanna write abt it... Haha...


'500 Days of Summer', a movie I recommend everyone to watch! To be summarized, this movie is abt a girl who doesn't believe in true love, and a guy falling in love terribly and deeply with her... This movie on itself is reli nice, but for different ppl with different experiences in their lives, this movie might connect to them in very different levels... so u all might as well give it a try, cuz u won't regret watching it no matter what... =)


Why is the title of the movie like that? That u gotta find out urself by watching the movie till the very end, which will make complete sense... haha... anyway, for those who's wondering if this is based on a novel, no it isn't... it's a original plot, based on true experiences of the writer in his life...


Although the movie didn't reli connect with me that much, but I still love a lot of the quotes in the movie which completely agree with my way of thinking in life... haha... Do check it out soon! ;)

Form 4 History..................

When SPM 2009 ended, I told myself that there were certain stuffs or rather subjects that I shall never ever touch in my life again, and this specifically referred to one sole subject, Sejarah! One of the most boring subject in Malaysian SPM syllabus, sejarah/history can be a useful tool for us all in knowing our country's history and how it came abt to its present state... but instead of being valuable, numerous topics of the subject r just simply useless and unnecessary... 

One of the examples r the islamic topics, of cuz! Malays studies islamic stuffs in one compulsory and isolated subject called 'Pendidikan Islam' already, so why in the heck r these topics included in History then? Stupid right? Forcing students of various religions to study and even worse, memorize islamic history, what's the point?! (Let me make myself clear, I have nth against the religion, just talking abt the sejarah syllabus, no offence! >.<)

Anyway, something that I thought I would never touch in my life ever again has came back to haunt me! =.= Around the mid of Sep, I shall be a relief teacher at Sacred Heart Secondary School (not my old school btw), and unfortunately, the teacher I'm replacing is a Form 4 History teacher... FML!

It just sucks that I have to touch history again, it's so boring and tiring... the teacher has asked me to prepare notes exercise for the last 3 topics in form 4, n this in particular is already driving me nuts! Everytime I open the form 4 history book, I'll start feeling sleepy in like 5 minutes... God knows how am I gonna survive through my 2 months of work! Sigh... Anyway, I shall start preparing myself with not only form 4 history, but oso with speaking in Malay... and that, I have not done for more than an entire year dy, sucks sucks SUCKS!!!

Just wish me luck! Thx a lot! =(

IELTS result!

Yayyyy... Today finally my IELTS result arrived at my house through courier service... Seriously, I was quite nervous of the result... I opened the parcel as quickly as I could, as I was super eager for the result... When I took out my certificate, and there it is, a passing grade! 


The requirements were at least 6.5 for every section and at least 7.0 for average... Although I still had a bit to spare for my average score, my speaking was exactly 6.5! So lucky, I almost failed... zzz... 


Not that failing this IELTS will completely destroy my chances of entering Monash, but I'll have to dig into my own pocket to take the test again, that is a sure NO NO! >.<


So now that everything is done, my MUFY score, interview, ISAT and IELTS, I can finally hang in my final application for MBBS at Monash Sunway Campus... I'll just have to wait a few days for them to reply, which I hope to be an offer letter... 


All the best to my fellow coursemates who will be taking their ISAT and IELTS soon... Good luck! =p

Different culture 0.0

Last week, I went to Kuching to take IELTS test, the very final requirement for my MBBS offer at Monash... the test was made up of 4 sections, and I did it separately on fri afternoon and sat morning... Although I was super nervous for speaking and writing, all in all I guess it went alright, just hope that I passed, haha... the only 'good' thing I encountered during the test was that I saw this cute and pretty girl from Penang... but that doesn't matter, lol...


Anyway, the main point of this post is something else... On fri night, I followed my cousin's wife, who's a Filipino, to her Filipino fren's house for dinner... all her frens gathered there for some sort of gathering, and their culture reli surprised me to the max! Seriously, Filipinos are super HIGH and NOISY when they get together! Normally u'll think the kids would be the naughtiest and noisiest... but this is not the case with them... the adults themselves, or specifically the adult women r the noisiest...

Whenever one of the friends arrived, they would weigh the person and take a picture of her... their weights will then be recorded in a book... do u know what they're actually doing? Apparently they're having a competition among themselves called 'The Biggest Loser'... for some of u who might have seen it in tv before, u'll know what's it's all abt... it's basically a competition to see who loses the most weight in the end of a period from the start of competition...


Other than that, the way they chatted among themselves, u'll seriously wonder if they're drunk... haha, super noisy and loud... they oso had a photo taking session with all the fake princess crowns and stuffs, reli like little girls wor... haha...


I just guess their culture is so different from us chinese... when chinese ppl grow up, we tend to feel that we shud take care of our reputation properly... most chinese would think these filipinos r a bit uncivilised... but honestly, if u think of it from another angle, they're just being honest with themselves and express themselves sincerely... that is sth chinese adults can only see n wish that they can do it but they can't, because that's just so different from our chinese culture...

Am I two-faced?

Sometimes ppl say, under different conditions and hanging out with different ppl, u need to blend in so that u can get along well with others and be happy in the end... is that always true in life? I find myself doing that nowadays automatically, but whether I'm reli happy in the end is reli a different question... >.<


Specifically, I find myself turning into two completely different person when I'm with my gang from home, and when I'm with my gang from college... and honestly, I dun reli like the 'me' when I'm with my college frens... I feel like that's not the real me! When I'm with my hometown frens, I'm always the crazy guy who jokes a lot and say stupid stuffs to create a cheerful environment... I dun feel insecure when I'm with them, that's why I just love every second I spend with them... but things r so different when I'm with my college frens... I try not to talk too much crap when I'm with them, I just feel like somehow, they dun buy what I say... I always feel paranoid around them and worried if sth I say might cause unpleasant feelings to them... sigh...


I just came back from my trip to Sunway for my graduation... throughout the whole trip, the only time I reli felt like myself was when I went to Midvalley to meet with one of my hometown frens, Eric to celebrate his bd... That was precious as it's hard these days to meet my close buddies due to different study places and holidays... As for my college frens, as soon as I caught up with them, I became less talkative... why do I have a feeling that I'm not one of them, I dunno... somehow there's always this feeling that some of them dun like me... am I being too paranoid? Or is it true that some of them dun like me? >.<


I'll be having 5 years of degree starting next Feb... due to the present situation, at times I reli hope my holiday never ends... T.T but one shud always face the reality, I just hope the situation would be better in future... I pray to You, please help me, my heavenly Father from above! @.@

Graduation night

I just had a 4 day trip to Sunway due to the graduation night for my pre-U program, MUFY... graduation was just one night, but why was I there for 4 days then? U might say I'm a busy person with many things to settle, haha... 


Anyway, let's just get straight to the main event of my trip, MUFY Graduation Night... I was very excited about it, cuz it was an occasion where I can dress up smartly and do my hair nicely to let others see... xD In order to look better on the night, I borrowed a coat from my cousin, which was actually his wedding coat, LOL... it was a bit too big, I have to admit, but oh well, overall it still looks ok... haha... However, on graduation day itself, things didn't start quite well for me... while I was bathing before going for graduation, I actually broke one of my nose pads of my specs (the pair of small thingy lying between the eyes), oh no! =.= But in the end I just continue wearing it, and luckily no one realized it, haha!

So, this is me and arguably my best fren in MUFY, Vignaa... so how do I look? Haha... I tried my best making a good hairstyle, which I dun do very often... Pls ignore my tie, it just annoys me even more now when I look through my photos of the night, my tie was crooked in all of them! >.< 


Of cuz, graduation was all about certificates and prizes... So a lot of awards and certificates were given out on the night... Apart from awards for highest scores in subjects, there were two more individual major awards, Award for Achievement and Award for Excellence... I was actually aiming for the Award for Excellence, which was given to the person with the highest MUFY score... in the end, I didn't get it and instead I got the Achievement Award, given to someone who contributed significantly in both academic and co-curricular activities... This came to me as a big surprise as I keep scratching my head, what co-curricular contribution did I give o?? Oh well, I'm just grateful and wanna thank all the lecturers and coursemates who helped me on the way... =)

Me with my award and certificate and stuffs

Awards and certificates recipients

Lastly, with everyone all dressed up so smart and gorgeous, taking pictures was just something everyone had to do... I reli loved the fact that u could take pictures with so many different ppl, even with some ppl who u normally wouldn't expect to... 


Personally, my favorite was a picture that I took with this one particular girl... honestly, she was the girl that attracted me the most on the night, dazzlingly beautiful, haha... too bad we were never close enuf frens to ever chat or talk normally... I even thought she hated me last year, cuz I gave a bad first impression and was too initiative? Oh well, I can only wish that one day, she could actually eliminate her barrier against me and give me some kind of response... there's still 5 more years to go though, haha... Sry guys, but I'm not gonna post that picture here, in respect to her privacy and identity... =)