I give up!

From today onward, I promise myself that I will never plan any trip or vacation to go anywhere with them ever again. Somehow these days, whenever I suggest on going somewhere, most of them would reject my ideas, one way or the other. I guess my plans and words are getting less and less appreciated these days. 

In year one, I planned for a Langkawi trip, everyone was so enthusiastic and the trip was great. In year two, I planned for a Kota Kinabalu trip, the number of people who agreed was half the number in year one, but the trip was still awesome. This year, I tried to plan for a Thailand/Bali trip, and you've guessed it, it was never going to happen. I understand why it's difficult, because we'll be crossing the border, and this might be hard for some of them to get their parents to agree. Some more, money will surely become an issue. 

I really understood all of those reasons, so I decided that instead of making our trip further and further each year, I planned for a small trip to the northern states of Malaysia, such as Penang and Perak. Just when I thought I've finally gotten most of them to agree with my plan, they came out with their own idea of going to Taman Negara. In the end, most of them preferred to do that. 

I really felt like shit, like no one cares about my efforts to try to plan trips for them. Surely I understand their reasons, some of them prefer tough activities rather than going on road trips, some of them just rather not drive their cars up to the north, I really understood. But still, I feel like shit. I tried so hard to make something happen, whether it's Thailand, Bali or north Malaysia, but in the end it's all useless. Why do I keep planning when I know they won't accept any of my ideas? I'm even scared to propose ideas to them these days, because of the rejections that I might get in the end.

Sometimes I really wish I have a girlfriend who shares my common interests, maybe I can plan so many trips with her and everything would be so awesome. When that so successful Langkawi trip ended, I really thought I have found a group of people who shares my interest in seeing the world, in going to different places and in living life.

I have never been so wrong.

The day that I dreaded the most

After so long, you finally have a crush on someone. Ever since I gave up around 3 years ago, you have always been single and perhaps available. Because of this, deep down in my heart, I've always thought that maybe I still have that little bit of hope of winning your heart one day. Even though in this 3 years, I dated someone else or liked some other girls, you have always been in my mind, I've never forgotten the girl I regard as 'perfect' in my life. Now that you have finally found someone special, I wish you can be happy, and I'll be happy for you too if this works out. Perhaps I can be the 黄晓明 in your life, and you can be the 赵薇 in my life too. No matter what, I'll always care about you, look at you from afar, and pray for you. Just take care, okay? :')

Stop showing off!

Sometimes it's really annoying when some people think that just because they have girlfriends or really close female friends and I am single, that gives them the right to show off about it. There's a lot of reasons why some people are still single, maybe they just haven't met the right person, or maybe they have some personality imperfection, or maybe they just don't want to start a new relationship. No matter what the reason is, it doesn't give anyone who is not single the right to show off their status, assholes!!

For example, I have this housemate who broke up with his girlfriend a few months ago. When he was sad and emo and all that, he became very very close to another girl, so naturally people will start to tease them about it, and that includes me. So one time when I teased him about it, he went like "I know you're jealous la Albert, I know I can attract girls very easily, HAHAHA!" I was like what the heck, here I was still a bit concerned of him still being depressed of his breakup with his ex, he came around and bragged about his 'attractiveness to girls' to me, the heck -.-

At that moment, I really wanted to tell him that he must be really glad to have broken up with his ex because he wants to attract more girls, but I didn't. I already said this before, from now on I'm going to use this blog to express my emotions so that maybe I'll feel better afterwards. Reading all my three recent posts makes me feel like I'm a whiner, but hey, so so few people visit my blog these days, maybe less than 3, so yeah, whatever la.

My roommate

I've been roommates with my current roommate for more than 1.5 years now, and we've known each other for more than 2 years, so much has changed. We used to be quite close, I think. We were able to talk a lot, I would tell him what's on my mind, he would tell me random interesting stuffs, we could even joke a lot with each other. That's all changed now.

I'm not sure what happened really, maybe it's because of me, but I really don't know. Nowadays he just minds his own business, and he can go the whole day without talking to me even once. The things that I say most often to him these days are 'Hey, I sleep first', 'What time are you going to class? I follow you, okay?' That's about it, I guess. He won't ever tell me random things and really talk to me anymore. He always has random interesting dreams when he sleeps at night, and he used to share those with me, but not anymore these days. We don't joke with each other anymore, though he consistently does it with my other housemates. I tried a few times to talk to him, tell him stuffs, but he'll either ignore me or just says okay.

I don't think he realizes the change like I do, I don't think he cares, unlike me, who is really sensitive as I mentioned before. I'm not really sure what happened, maybe I did something wrong? Or maybe he developed a bad impression of me, like what I mentioned in the last post? I don't know what I should do about it, but what I do know is that I still need to stay roommates with him for the next 1.5 years, so no matter what, I still have to make do with it. Life goes on...

I'm back here, and I know why.

Well, I don't really know when I last posted in my blog, but I guess in life, when you can't find anyone close to you to confide in your problems anymore, this is where you end up, typing away to a lifeless computer, and hoping that this may somehow spare you some comfort. That is exactly what is happening to me right now, no more people to lend me their ears.

I have a bunch of friends in my course. They are nice people, always cracking random funny jokes, doing things together. I like spending time with them, I really do. But recently, I feel like I'm starting to become a nuisance to them, a problem. This is not sudden, it's been for quite a while now. I really do feel like sometimes when I talk, I create problems with my mouth. I know myself well, I am someone who is very direct, I will tell you directly how I feel about things, but I guess this gets me into trouble from time to time, and I think it has left a bad perception of me in all of them.

Just last Thursday, we were having a gathering at their place, and playing this game called Resistance. The game basically consists of two teams, where the Resistance team must figure who are the spies, with everyone not knowing each other's identity. So, this one time, one of my friend started accusing me of being one of the spies (which I was!), but to deny it, I begin to complain why he always accuse me. He replied me 'Why you always merajuk one? You always merajuk about everything.' At that very moment, I came to the realization that, this is how everyone thinks of me actually, someone who cannot stand anything and complains about every other thing. I was really depressed after that, though I try my best not to show it.

I mean like, I complained about so much stuffs to them, I showed my emotions to them, it's only because I trusted them, I felt like in front of them, I don't need to hide my feelings. Of course, I know it's wrong to feel unhappy about things, I shouldn't do that, and I should control my bad temper. But in the end, they all think I'm someone who 'merajuk' about too many things, who is too sensitive to too many things (which I guess I am), and now I don't feel like telling anyone of them about this.

In addition, a few days ago, one of my housemate created a whatsapp group for one of my friend's birthday celebration, and he kept asking us to reply in the group. So, at that moment, without thinking, I just replied that it's so weird that housemates have to reply in the whatsapp group just because other ppl are not replying. I guess it was stupid of me, not thinking that it was quite late and everyone would have been asleep. The next morning, I woke up to a whatsapp reply which one other friend said she slept already the night before, and 'plz dont try to create conflict for every bday planning'. I felt so bad at that moment, because it wasn't my intention to create any conflict, I just wanted everyone to reply more actively, and it seems to them that I'm someone who always create conflicts. To be fair, I did create conflicts for ONE birthday plan before, but I guess that was enough to create an impression to them of me being the creator of conflicts for 'every bday planning'.

So, what now? My bunch of friends here think I'm someone who 'merajuk about everything' and 'always try to create conflicts'. I feel sad, because I'm really trying to change my bad habits. It's easier said than done, so sometimes I feel like I should just avoid hanging out with them, so that I will talk to them less, and hence create less conflicts and have less a chance to merajuk about anything to them. This way, they can be happier, and I wouldn't feel so depressed too. But it's difficult too, to stop hanging out with them, because I literally stay with half of them in a house. Sigh, sometimes I really feel like running away.

I don't know how many people still visit my blog these days. I certainly hope the less the better. Maybe one day I will come to regret ever writing this post, but what is there to regret when none of them really cares about me anyway? In the end, I realized that, they will actually be better off without me hanging out with them :(

结束~~

长痛不如短痛，最终还是要面对，不需要再拖拖拉拉了，唉.........

An Unstoppable Landslide

After 9 months since I quit blogging, now I'm back here again. Why? I really need some place to release my tension and disappointment, and this is where I chose, sigh.

What's the point of studying hard when you know every time that you won't get any good results in return? I can't stop this unstoppable landslide, I really can't. I used to excel in all my exams during pre-u, always one of the top scorers. Even in primary and secondary school, I was always in the top ten in class. 

When I started embarking on this dreaded journey of medicine, everything started so well, I was one of the top scorers for the first exam, and I told myself, maybe having no interest in medicine wasn't that bad, maybe I can really do it!

BUT! Everything went down ever since. I've had 5 exams in total so far, and every SINGLE time, my results have dropped more and more from the last without fail. From 80+ to 70+, and then high 60+, mid 60+ and now, I'm left with low 60+. So much for always being a top scorer. 

Every time I managed to come out with excuses for myself, like maybe the exam was just too tough, or maybe I just didn't work hard enough, but this time, I really don't know what to say already. To say I studied harder than last year is simply an understatement, and what awaits me in the end? MORE disappointment! What can I do now? Feeling sorry for myself, licking my wounds, thinking about how different life would be if I have been smarter to change my course when I had the chance.

Honestly, I'm not used to being so stupid, I have always regarded myself as a smart person, someone who has the ability to help others, and now, I can no longer feel that way. I feel like giving up, I really don't know what to do. How low more can I get? Maybe 50+? Maybe even failing my exams? That would be a first, failing an exam. Oh God! Please help me in this period of difficulties, please give me strength, wisdom and determination. I don't want to ask for too much, I just don't want to drop anymore, please, please!!!

Hold On!

Sometimes you wonder, if you had hold on just a little bit longer, things might have been very different from how they are right now. But I guess, it's just not meant to be. Sigh.

Holidays, without my best friend.

Yeah, finally some much needed holidays are here! In another 5 hours, I'll be landing in Sibu to have my one week long raya holidays. After 4 weeks of intense MBBS curriculum, I seriously need my rest (though after this, it's gonna be 2++ consecutive months of much more grueling curriculum, sigh!). During this coming week, I really hope to have as much fun as I can, but it's just not possible as I have to study for the coming mid semester exam after raya holidays. T.T

Anyway, at this very moment, my best friend, Sing Kiet is on his way to US to further his studies. On Thursday night, Eric, Kuen Luen and I went to the airport to bid him farewell, as he's most probably not gonna come back in the next 3 years. Though the gathering was quite short, I think that memory will always be valuable and nostalgic in the future. We did manage to surprise him with some gifts in the form of a beanie, a card with our hearty wishes and a 2R photo of the 4 of us. They serve as early birthday gifts as well as farewell gifts to our best buddy, and I was glad he liked them. =D

Shall always be best friends!

As I have written in the card to him, me and him, we have come a long way in our friendship. From knowing him since primary 2 when I first moved to Sibu, till we graduated from Form 5 in secondary school, we were classmates for 10 years. In that period, our friendship evolved from being normal friends who fought childish fights with each other till we became best friends. In the end, that smartass got overseas offer from JPA while I could only stay local, haha!

We had our differences, we had our fights and quarrels, but I guess those are the things that strengthen our friendship even more. Now that he has left to US, guess I won't have anymore solo breakfast sessions with him in Sibu during my holidays already, too bad! I can only now wish him all the best in the States, and may our friendship never fade in the years to come. Good luck, bro!

My new smartphone!

Finally, I have gotten a new smartphone, Samsung Galaxy Nexus! I realized that I have never mentioned it, but for those of you who do not know, I lost my Nokia Xpressmusic 5310 more than a month ago in Sunway Pyramid when I went there to watch Madagascar 3. My friends and I searched all over the place in the cinema, the place we ate lunch, the car and even the washroom, but we just couldn't find it. Sigh, that phone had been with me for more than 4 years and half already, now it's gone. But the bright side is I finally have the desire to buy a new phone.


So after considering for quite a long time, I bought a Nexus. I was initially considering between Samsung Galaxy S2, S3 and Nexus. I really wanted to buy S3 at first, as it's a very recent model, but I guess the price of around 2k just put me off in the end. After much consideration, I decided that the prices of phones will surely drop in the future, so there's no point in buying the best phone out there. So with 1k++, I bought the phone above last Wednesday.


This being the first ever smartphone I ever owned, you can imagine how addictive it was for me in the past week. It's amazing how many things you can do with it, once you installed all the apps that you want. I just couldn't get my hands off it, and with all my syllabus cramming up, I was quickly behind pace in terms of my studies. So now, I'm controlling myself not to touch it too much daily, haha. Discipline! Control! >.<

First week of the new sem

The first week of the new semester is over now. Actually there are many things that had happened in the past week that I don't know where to start with. Well, first of all, I got my results of the first semester exam back on Monday. Honestly, I'm quite disappointed in my results personally. My marks dropped by almost 10 marks from the last exam, sigh. The only consolation was that I still managed to luckily get into the 'High' category. Guess I'll need work much harder for the next exam.


However, I have to say, I study in an environment where if your results are better than some people, you cannot complain or express your disappointment in front of them, they'll think that you're trying to show off. Seriously, guys? I'm seriously saddened by my results dropping, is it so wrong to be disappointed about it? I'm trying to be true to my feelings, but I guess people just prefer me to be hypocritical. =.=


Alright, back to the 2nd semester of year 1, the curriculum seems to be tougher and busier than the last semester, though ironically the timetable looks emptier. I guess that's what human anatomy does to you, all the bones, muscles, vessels, nerves and blah blah blah. However, I'm still affected by my holiday mood and am still so lazy that I can't be bothered to study anything at all yet. In contrast, most of my course mates have already found their rhythm even before the new semester started. Medical students are so scary, huh?


Anyway, to wrap up the first week, our batch had a 'Captain Ball' competition among the groups on Friday after classes. I shall not explain the game here, don't see a point to it, haha. The game required teamwork, so it was perfect for us to bond with our new group mates in the new semester. Though I didn't contribute much, I had lots of fun and my group got 1st runner up, haha.


Hoping that I'll get my rhythm back soon enough. ^_^

Acceptance instead of emoness

I have come to a point in my life where, instead of always being emo about my status and lack of attraction to the opposite gender, I have succumbed to the acceptance of them. I used to be always emo about being unable to get the girl that I'm attracted to, and feeling so down when I see all the couples around me, whether I know them or not. Well, those days are over, temporarily at least. Now, I've just come to accept the fact that I'm just not that attractive to girls, both physically and mentally.

Personally, when I go around shopping in some mega malls or night markets, my eyes are always wandering around looking at random pretty girls walking pass me all the time. Not that I'm a maniac, no, it's just human's natural reactions to beautiful objects, which in this case, beautiful people. But after a while, I realized that no one's doing the same to me in return. The fact is I'm just not a beautiful guy where females' eyes would follow. Based on personal extractions of others honest opinions in the past, the general view is that my physical impression is categorized as nerdy, too serious and most of all, typical. The sad truth indeed.

I can indeed say I would occasionally turn emo because of everything I just mentioned, but those occasions are becoming less and less. The reason is as stated by the title above, acceptance. Acceptance that beautiful girls are just not meant to end up with me. Acceptance that I would be the near last guy to be noticed by girls in a room full of males and females. And eventually, acceptance that everything is in God's plan and it would be meaningless to make an effort to chase attractive girls since I'm gonna end up miserably.

Life lacking of motivation and interests right now

I've been home in Sibu for almost a week now, and life's starting to get really boring. Just so you know, I'll be staying in Sibu for exactly one month for my semester break. Though coming back started out quite interestingly as the day I came back on was Dumpling Festival, and I get to go out with many frens who happen to be in Sibu now, it's starting to get really boring. It's cuz my best fren, Sing Kiet had since went off to Australia for vacation, and another guy is going back to KL soon this weekend, leaving me as the only guy left alone in Sibu with all the others being girls! T.T

Well, that's not just it. I'm starting to find it hard to recognize motivations and interests in my life. Being in holiday, I do not know what I should do at all. I don't chat with anyone consistently these days, as no one is so close to me anymore other than SK. My phone never rings anymore as no one would text me to chat with me, and vice versa. I'm not motivated to read anything at all too, be it academically related or not. Being out of motivations and interests, means I'm running out of ideas to blog as well!

The only things that I'm doing nowadays are watching movies and sleep. Well, maybe I should just hope to get back to uni asap, but the thought of leaving my hometown is just as bad as well, sigh. At least last time I still had someone to be emo about, but now not even close to one! That's how forever alone I am at the moment -_-

Melaka Vacation!

The 2nd vacation trip after the end of my 1st semester, Melaka! Yeah!! This is the 2nd time in my life of going to Melaka, the first time being last year's April when I went with 2 MUFY frens. This time though, I went with 5 course mates from my medicine course, and it was filled with total fun and delicious foods! XD One of them provided and drove a car there, so transport was not a problem... And we stayed at a cheap hotel just to save cost. >.< Alright, as always, let the pictures do the talking! Haha!

Chicken rice balls! We ate it at Restoran Famosa in Jonker Street. It's not one of the most famous chicken rice ball shops in Melaka though, the two most famous being Chung Wah and Hoe Kee, but we still chose there to save the trouble of queuing up under the hot sun. It was okay, but I would like to eat the famous ones in future, just to see what's so special about them that there are freaking long lines outside at all times! Anyway, the picture above is a set of fried chicken rice ball (5 balls) at RM5.

After lunch, we went to San Shu Gong, a shop to buy local products, biscuits and stuffs like that. The shop is at the entrance of Jonker Street, right beside Chung Wah chicken rice ball shop, and if you're planning on buying some souvenirs in the form of local food products, do come here! =D

Of course, for some of my friends who have never been to Melaka before, the historical sites and museums certainly attracted their attention. So we went to Stadthuys, numerous museums, Christ Church, St Paul's Church and Porta de Santiago while taking lots of photos along the way. ^^

After all the walking and visiting, nothing beats Durian Cendol for a perfect teatime! Got this from Jonker 88 which is the no.88 shop on Jonker Street, if you don't understand the name of the shop. This is arguably the best food we ate on the whole trip, coming at RM4, filled with durian paste and gula melaka. Eating it just feels like heaven, literally! Haha!

Other than that, we got some laksa's from Jonker 88 as well. Above is Nyonya Asam Laksa which costs RM5. It was nice, though one of my Penang friend claims that Penang Asam Laksa is way better.

My favourite laksa from Jonker 88 was this, Baba Laksa kahwin Nyonya Asam Laksa, RM5. Basically it's a mixture of two types of laksa, and it tasted so NICE! Wouldn't mind eating this all the time, though it still doesn't beat the best laksa of all time, Sarawak Laksa! Hahaha.

At night, we went out to Jonker Street for shopping and a bit of food. This Jonker Street night market only opens on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays, so be sure to visit Melaka during weekends if you don't want to miss this. The Jonker Street night market is different from normal night markets you have in Selangor area in the sense that it's less food but more products and cheap stuffs for shopping. Due to all the varieties of stuffs sold there at low prices, the 3 girls went on rampage with their shopping mode activated, and we spent around 3 hours there, OMG!

After that, we just couldn't miss one of the primary attraction of Melaka food, satay celup! Last year, I went to Ban Lee Siang, but this year we went to Capitol, hence I was ready to compare the both of them. Not sure if it's the truth or maybe it's just been too long since I last ate satay celup, Capitol seemed to taste better than Ban Lee Siang. Though each stick comes at RM0.90, which is more expensive than Ban Lee Siang's which comes at RM0.70 (last year), the sticks are somehow bigger and I like the sauce here better than Ban Lee Siang.

Satay celup for supper, truly fattening! LOL!

The next morning, we decided to have breakfast before going back to Sunway. And we came to this shop where my friends claimed to have nice wantan mee and char kuay teow. We didn't get to eat the char kuay teow, but surely I'm not gonna miss the most awesome wantan mee I've ever tasted in my life!

FYI, the wantan mee in Melaka uses some unique chili sauce instead of the normal black sweet sauce. Initially I wasn't expecting much as I'm not a chili lover at all, but I have to say, it was so delicious that I'm not gonna order another black sweet sauce wantan mee in my life ever again. I can't describe the taste, but it was just so awesome, and quite cheap as well at RM3.30.


Overall, this Melaka trip was just so lovely and delicious, haha! I have to say, I really LOVE Melaka, and at the moment, I place it at my 2nd personal favourite place, behind my beloved hometown Sibu only (though that might all change when I finally get to go to Penang and other various places in future). Not sure when will be the next time of coming back to Melaka, but surely this will not be the last! =P

Genting Trip!

So, the first of two trips for my semester break is to Genting Highlands! Well, we went in a group of 9 on Thurday, and started our journey early in the morning by car.

Once we reached the cable cars, we parked our cars there and used cable cars to go up to Genting. This is actually my first time sitting in a cable car, so it was quite interesting, haha! (though some of my frens were scared of heights and keep complaining, LOL!)

Met up with another group of frens from our course for lunch. They were here a day earlier and was gonna leave Genting once they're done with Genting. It was great meeting up with them, though the food at Genting is just freaking expensive. I actually ate a RM12 wantan mee which tasted below standard. -_-

 

There u go, the most recent ticket prices at Genting Theme Park. We went for Outdoor Theme Park which costed RM50 per person. You might feel it's more expensive than last time, but actually now they let us go for Flying Coaster FOC (last time is RM10 per ride!).

First ride of the day, Sungai Rajang Flume Ride. Got incredibly wet right after the first ride, gosh! >.<

Pirate ship. Still think Sunway Lagoon's Pirate Ship is much better as it goes 360 degrees.

Lined up for around an hour for Bumper Boat, it was still worth it though. =P

Corkskrew, aka roller coaster. This is the best roller coaster in Genting, and quite exciting as well, haha.

Space Shot!! I actually played this twice on the day, and I have to say, apart from Flying Coaster, this is the best ride in Genting! So scary when you're falling free fall from so high up, OMG!

The good old Spinner! Still as nice as ever.

In the end, we left Genting quite late due to taking so many group photos with other course mates we met in the theme park. This is my favourite picture, too bad two of our members didn't come with us. It would have been so awesome. But then again, enjoyed this one-day trip to Genting! =P

Holidays are here, FINALLY!

YES!! My first semester as a medicine student is officially OVER!! Hahaha... After a whole month of hard work and non-stop studies, finally I've completed today's examination... Though I'm a bit disappointed cuz I could have done better, but oh well, who cares anymore, right?? Hahaha... Until the results come out, I shall not concern myself about it... For now, I'm gonna enjoy my holidays as much as I can, 6 weeks worth of holiday, must use everyday of it to the full extent!! Haha...

P.S. I'm gonna try to blog more from now on, at least for the next 6 weeks... Will try to update more about my holidays... =)

Choices

Choices, what does this word mean to u? Do u like to have choices in your life? I guess everyone loves to have choices in life, right? Diverse choices of food to eat, choices of friends to be with, choices of places to go on vacation... Everyday in our lives, we make choices in so many situations... The question is, are choices really that good?

Personally, sometimes I find choices quite distressing in life... Choices put us in a dilemma, they cause us to waste a lot of our time to consider what should be done, and when we finally decided on something, deep down we know that we sacrificed something on the other side... Of course this applies only to certain situations, situations where it would be so convenient that we're left with no choices and just pick the only one that is left... this don't just save us our precious time, it also saves us from plenty of stress and worries that we would give ourselves...

Recently, I had a tutorial in my course, and I was asked the question how did I cope to studying medicine when it's actually my last choice initially? For some of u who doesn't know, medicine was never my preference in the first place, and I only took it after JPA diverted my application from dentistry to medicine... After much reflection on the topic, I had to say, there was nothing for me cope with, as I did not sacrifice anything... Simply put, I did not have a choice at all! 

When I received the offer from JPA, the only thing I was thinking at that moment and still do, is that I must save money for my parents and lessen their burden as much as I can... I come from a financially restrained family, and naturally I did not think too much about whether it was my interest to study medicine... Although I would have loved things to go my way, that I could have chosen the course that I wanted, but actually, medicine is not that bad a course also, right?

However the future holds, I can only accept it with my all, as I'm constantly reminded that this might be God's calling to me to study medicine and be a good doctor in future... As for choices, I have to say, sometimes it's just better not to have choices, it takes away so much of our worries and troubles... Of course we cannot do away with choices in life, I can't imagine a life without choices, haha!

it's all about EXAMS!!

Ya, it's all about exams recently... I had a mid sem exam in early April, and the result only came out on Monday, 6 freaking weeks after the actual exam!! Talk abt losing ur patience waiting =.=... I think most of us even forgot abt it already... But anyway, my result was okay, I'm quite satisfied with it, I think... Thank God I didn't screw up my very 1st medicine exam, LOL!


So after the result came out, what next? Exactly, more exams!! Gonna be having my semester exam in 3 weeks time, and I can tell u that if I'm asked to take the exam right now, I'm gonna FAIL for sure... to be honest, I haven't been studying at all, have been procrastinating since I came back from my mid semester holiday... I better dun screw up this one, gotta buck up to study very hard for the next 3 weeks, starting from tomorrow!


Anyway, when the results came out on Monday, I heard a lot of ppl saying that bad results motivate them to study harder... I think personally, that doesn't work on me, cuz I'll be regretting why I didn't do better and not think of the future... Call me lan si or whatever, but honestly, what spurs me on to study harder is the moments when I get good results, and ppl would be like 'Wow!', 'Congratz, Albert', or anything like that... This is quite an embarrassing part of me, and I'm revealing it here, omg... >.<

Best friends forever!

Look! It's the Fantastic 4! Haha... That was how we called ourselves back then during high school... Those 3 above, Kuen Luen, Eric and Sing Kiet, are my besties in my life, and will continue to be for the rest of my life... XD


Today was a rare occasion as finally we got the opportunity to have a gathering with each other... it's been quite hard to do that since high school, as all 4 of us went to different colleges/unis and our holidays are almost always different... Though Kuen Luen came late and we only got to meet for like one hour, that one hour is really worth it... These ppl have been my precious support throughout my life, and they are a big part of the reason why I am who I am today... Thank God for giving me such good friends! ^^


Although from here onward, we'll all be heading for our different paths respectively, I believe that one day, those 4 paths will join into one once again, no matter how long that is... I have to say, my decision to screw my Saturday for doing assignment is made worthwhile simply by seeing u all! =)

Laziness fills me to the max!!

I know I should be studying more, I know I should revise all my lectures daily and finish my assignments as soon as possible, I know I should go to uni during weekends in order to study properly... but whatever I'm doing right now is completely the opposite... I'm wasting most of my time on facebook, I'm constantly planning to go on gatherings or visits with my friends, I'm delaying all my assignments and not studying when I need to... This is really getting out of hand... I might have lost my kiasuness, which is what I always wished for, but now I'm beginning to doubt whether that's a good thing or not... =/


Anyway, I finally bought a camera from my friend, Timothy... It's a Canon PowerShot SX220 HS, bought at a cut price and is only 3 months old! Now that I have a new camera, think I'm gonna start taking lots of pictures everywhere... This is gonna make me lose focus on my studies more, oh no!!


Honestly, I'm a bit stressed about the whole situation at the moment... but as I always said, this is like the 1st semester of 1st year, I should chill and relax as I don't get much of that as the course progresses... well, I just hope I don't be too lazy and neglect my studies too much... @@